Thursday, October 9, 2014

ADOPTION

So Finally we have some exellent news! Our three little monkeys are 100% ours! On September 29th we officially became a family of six! I can not explain or discribe the joy and love that I felt since that day!  I have had several people ask me "So does it feel different now?" Honestly YES! A huge relief!  I now know that no matter what happens I am their momma! There is no more court dates.. no more fears that a biological relative will come forth and want the kids.  I no longer have the fear that someone will come and take them away from us.  It is wonderful! 

I also can see and feel the peace and relief that the kids feel. There is power in being all one family.  Its hard to discribe but ever since the adoption the kids have a new sense of confidence.  They now belong.  After 831 days in foster care they now have a forever family. 

To add to our joy we where able to go to the Logan Temple on October 3rd and were sealed as a eternal family.  I will never forget that day!  Besides the day I married Bryan it was the most important and sacred day of my life.  To know that on earth and in heaven we are a family is the most peaceful feeling ever. 

Let me just tell you that my heart has never felt so much love and joy as that day in the temple.  To be able to be with my sweet husband in the sealing room waiting to see our kids come. So so special.  Then when they walked in my heart exploded.  They where so beautiful all dressed in white.  They looked like angels!  I was so humbled to know that my Heavenly Father was trusting me with these children.    I think I got a glimpse of what heaven is that day. 

My testimony of eternal families has increased ten fold over the past year.  I am grateful that my parents took me to that very temple just 29 years earlier so our family would be forever!  I am grateful that they have also been an example to me and taught me that family is the greatest gift we have been given and is worth fighting for!   I am grateful that Bryan is the strong and faithful man I prayed and hoped for.  I love him so much and love seeing him be an amazing father.  
For now I must go. .. I have a little one in my bed that I need to snuggle.  Life is GOOD! 

Ps if there is typos or errors please forgive. .. I am writing this on my phone.  :)

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Whats new at the Dutton house...

Well I guess its time for another update! I HONESTLY can not believe I have not updated this since November! WOW so much has happened!  Ok well the biggest thing to report is the status on the kiddos.  Right before Christmas we found out that finally the judge had removed the rights of the kids from their mother and fathers and that we where "officially"  selected as the adoptive family.   I can not tell you the joy I felt when I got that phone call!  I was so giddy and imminently called Bryan and work and informed him of the good news! I do have to admit that I had to go find a place to have a personal moment and let the tears flow.  That same day was my dads birthday and all of the family went out to dinner.  It was SO hard not to tell them first thing but I wanted it to be special.  So in my dads card I wrote that the best gift I could give him was to let him be the first to know that his little monkeys would soon be his forever.  To see the joy on his face and my moms was such a gift.  Its the closest thing to announcing that we are pregnant as i will ever get! lol  We had such a great Christmas!  The kids of course where spoiled by the grandparents.  We all had footie PJS and had some great family moments.  My favorite moments was when the kids all got to open the very last gift together.  A box that was wrapped in pretty paper and defiantly looked special, because it was!  We had a photo of out family in there.  We then explained to them that the best gift we could get was each other.  We then explained that soon they would get to join the "Dutton Club" ( how T explains it!) That was another tender moment to remember.  To see the excitement on their faces and to see T turn to KK and say "I will get to be your REAL brother" That was one of those times when I wanted to stop time and just enjoy every second of that moment. Like most things that happen there is always a catch to everything.  As we started the 3 month count down to when the offical adoption would take, we learned of some details that would actually push that day back even further.  One of the fathers decided to appeal the ruling to the Supreme Court!  I have a very strong opinion on the whole thing that I would LOVE to express but it would do no good because we can not change anything about it.  Although it can take up to a year longer we are hoping for the best that it will all be final in the summer 2014!

As far as everything else our family is just busy as ever!

 Kirianna is doing great in school.  We love every second she is up with us!  She is SUCH a great big sister!  She amazes me all the time at how much she loves her siblings.  I am now the activity days leader in our ward over her age group so it was been a fun time being able to work together.

T Dog is the same crazy boy as always.  He is growing up to fast.  He is really starting to pick up on reading and learning so fast!  He is also in a hip hop class and loving it!  That boy can sure perform! cracks me up!  He did catch me off guard one day when he asked me if I could have a baby brother for him.  After explaining to him that some moms can grow babies in their tummy's and some moms cant and that I am one of those mommies who cant.  He still was not satisfied  because he "has enough sisters but needs a brother"  It wasn't until I reminded him that Dad only has sisters and that being the only boy meant he would always have his own room he was totally ok with me not giving him a brother.

Our Diabetic Princess now has a insulin pump!  It is every exciting!  NO MORE SHOTS!  She loves it because its pink!  It really has made our life so much easier. Correction, it has made HER life easier!  Still very stressful for mom and dad!  We are still getting all her numbers right and all the kink worked out but it is going better for sure!  The best this about the pump is now she can eat like a normal kid!  Before we had to be on a tight schedule.  She had to eat at certain times and only every 4 hours and if she wanted a snack it was very limited what she could have.  But now she can each when ever and real what ever as long as we type in what carbs she ate!  Also she is in dance class and loving it!  Such a girlly gil this one is!

Our Abu is now 2!  How did that stinker get so big?  Like all 2 year olds that are the funnest to watch learn and grow but also so whats the word... frustrating at times!  She just wants to do anything and everything the big kids do.  Although is is tiny she still keeps up with them!  She is also full or energy and sassyness!  She is mommies little girl!  If my lap or arms are free....then she is in them!  Just love my little snuggle bug!

As for Bryan and I.... we are the same.  Bryan working hard at winco while I hold down the fort at home! I do have to say we make a pretty good team!  I would go crazy with out him!  I cant believe our 3rd Anniversary is coming up!  Doesn't seem like much but we have crammed ALOT in those 3 years! Three surgeries, 2 rounds of 6 weeks of IV therapy at home, the very hated life vest days,  starting our foster care journey, 4 kids, new house and a whole lot of LOVE!  It may seemed like we took our time to get married but once we said I DO we have been full speed ahead!  Maybe now we can slow down a little, but I doubt it! But I am OK with that!