Tuesday, May 21, 2013

To my diabetic princess.

So much has been going on in our household the past three days.  Our little princess T was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes.  It has been a whirlwind, so much information to take in and so many emotions to sort thru.  The best way I can even recap it all is to share a letter I wrote to her....

Dearest T,

First things first, do you know how much I love you?  I love you so much, and feel so blessed that you have been a part of our family!  You are such a sweet fun loving, ball of energy topped with a crown for the most beautiful princess ever!  Tonight your life has changed forever.  I am looking at you so peacefully sleeping in your hospital bed and cant help the heart ache I have for you.  I so wish I could take this away from you. ( I now understand how grandma felt when she would tell me that same thing)  It is so hard to even wrap my head around the journey you have just begun.  But I do know that you are strong and amazing and will not let anything slow you down! I know that at times you will feel overwhelmed and frustrated and get mad at the trial you have been given.  But please know you are not alone! You have SO many people who love you and want to help you!  I will always be there! I will do EVERYTHING possible to help you stay healthy and do anything and everything you want.  Please know that when you cry from getting poked, I am crying too.  Please forgive me for having to hurt you in order to keep you healthy.  Above all always remember there is someone you can turn to who will always be there, who knows your pain and who will help you lighten your burden, its your Savior.  He loves you, turn to him, ask for his help he will never let you down.  He will protect you!  I will never forget the strongest prompting I felt when the spirit told me that something was not right, and you needed to see a doctor.  That just goes to show how much you are loved that the Lord made sure you would be ok, he kept you safe and will continue to do so.  So my little princess, don't let this trial define you!  You are going to be unstoppable, I can not wait to see the wonderful thing you will accomplish!  Thank you for letting me be part of your life! You encourage me to be better, you are my hero! I love you!