So I have keep meaning to write down some of the "ah ha" moments I've had this past week. People always say that you have to go through the darkness to know how great the light is. Well I totally agree with that! I think that has been a theme for my whole life! But I haven't been so grateful for those dark periods in my life until recently. I have come to see just how much I truly learned from those times and how much I grew and most of all how much I truly was never a lone! Its kind hard to explain exactly what I am trying to say. But I can give you examples of what i am trying to say :)
So on Sunday I taught RS lesson with the other members of the presidency. We focused on Christ. And the Scripture that says "For unto you a child is born" So we wanted to have to sister think about who Christ is to them personally! So I shared my testimony about how He is my friend. And that got me thinking of the times in my life when I truly needed a friend. When I felt so alone and that no one even saw me. Like how hard it was to leave the mission. All my friends and then going back up to BYUI and feeling totally alone. But I now can say I am SO grateful for that time! I needed to cling to the one person who would never leave me.
Also this week I had lunch with a very good friend. She is amazing! She is such an example to me! Well after chatting it up in pizza hut for three hours I walked away with a greater testimony of my Saviors individual love for his children! This friend has just recently found out she has cancer. So we exchanged Dr stories, Some that made me laugh, some that made me want to cry and others that made me want to never see a Dr again :). As I talked to her I remembered how there have been times while dealing with my heart problems that I felt that I couldn't go on. How I didn't know how I could find the energy to do another test or hear another bad news. (now I'm not playing the pity card I am VERY blessed...just explaining my feelings) I remember how Dark those times feel. But now I don't think I could ever have become the person I am with out those times.
Then one more example. I have been watching a VERY dear friend of mine come back into activity in the church. Its amazing to see the light get brighter and brighter in her eyes! How she is remembering just how much the Lord loves her and how much she loves Him! She is a GREAT help to me and example. She so reminds me of myself! I was her same age when I came back to activity. How excited I was about the gospel! How after so long of being away from the Light the Lord still opened his arms and lead me back to Him. I still remember feeling so lost and unhappy and truly dark it was in my life! I am grateful I remember so validly so will never ever forget how grateful i am to know how great the Light is!
So yes we do need to know the dark before the light! And how great the Light is after being in the dark!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
OK so I thought I would be a lot better at writing on this thing! :) Oh well what can you do? :) Well Its the day before Thanksgiving and I thought it would be a great day to kinda just talk about what I am gratefully for this year. I honestly can't believe that its been a year! or two or three! I swear the past three years have just zoomed on pass me! But at least I can say within those past three years I have sure learned a lot! Shoot even the past five I have!
Mostly this year my eyes have been opened to the importance of family and friends. Sometimes I feel very unworthy of being blessed with the people in my life. I know the Lord has blessed me with amazing family and friends cuz he knows how much I would struggle with out them :) I am so thankful for my friends. All my old friends and my new friends. Its amazing to me to see how friends will stay with you forever. Even though many friends I don't get to talk to as much as I would like. But their influences effect my life everyday! Then I have my family, who I would say are my best friends but I don't feel that that term best describes them because they are so much more. My parents have helped me so much this past year, from business tips, to advice on marriage, to encouraging me to be better. Also Tara ( pay attention Tara this might be the only time you hear this ;) ) she has been a rock in my life. I never knew I could learn so much from my little sister. She has so many qualities I pray that I can develop.
Another huge part of my life I am SO thankful for is the Gospel! I cant even put in to words what I would like to say about it, but I do know that I would be so lost with out it! I am pretty sure that this past year the Lord has had to carry me the whole time! Also I am going to have to say it but I am so grateful for the constant influence of my mission! I know that its been three years since I left but EVERYDAY is impacted because of it! I can never be gratefully enough for the time I spent in Florida serving the Lord. But in all reality the Lord did so much more for me there than I did for him!
OK so now that I am past the mushy stuff :) Little things I am grateful for, Ice cream, my car, culligan water, post it notes, sweater vests, hair spay, my cell phone, mountains, rain, waffle makers, sharpie pens, dishwashers, Ziggy, good jokes! Nintendo, oh and so much more!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Mostly this year my eyes have been opened to the importance of family and friends. Sometimes I feel very unworthy of being blessed with the people in my life. I know the Lord has blessed me with amazing family and friends cuz he knows how much I would struggle with out them :) I am so thankful for my friends. All my old friends and my new friends. Its amazing to me to see how friends will stay with you forever. Even though many friends I don't get to talk to as much as I would like. But their influences effect my life everyday! Then I have my family, who I would say are my best friends but I don't feel that that term best describes them because they are so much more. My parents have helped me so much this past year, from business tips, to advice on marriage, to encouraging me to be better. Also Tara ( pay attention Tara this might be the only time you hear this ;) ) she has been a rock in my life. I never knew I could learn so much from my little sister. She has so many qualities I pray that I can develop.
Another huge part of my life I am SO thankful for is the Gospel! I cant even put in to words what I would like to say about it, but I do know that I would be so lost with out it! I am pretty sure that this past year the Lord has had to carry me the whole time! Also I am going to have to say it but I am so grateful for the constant influence of my mission! I know that its been three years since I left but EVERYDAY is impacted because of it! I can never be gratefully enough for the time I spent in Florida serving the Lord. But in all reality the Lord did so much more for me there than I did for him!
OK so now that I am past the mushy stuff :) Little things I am grateful for, Ice cream, my car, culligan water, post it notes, sweater vests, hair spay, my cell phone, mountains, rain, waffle makers, sharpie pens, dishwashers, Ziggy, good jokes! Nintendo, oh and so much more!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Update on my life!
Well here is a quick sneak peek into my life and the newest updates!
Many of you know that I closed my preschool. It was a hard decision but the timing was right and things have really worked out. So after being jobless and missing the kids for a while I started the good old job hunt! Well after some great jobs fell through I was going to give up. Then my little sister was watching out for me and saw a add for a assistant at an orthodontic office. Well long story short I got the job and a lot of prayers where answered! I am now working for Dr. Davis in Pocatello. I love it! The people I work with are great! I love getting to learn something new everyday! Although I never knew putting on braces was so hard! :)
Also with the closing of the preschool I needed some roommates! Well I once again have been blessed! I live with Tara (my little sis) like always, and then her best friend from high school Amanda and also my good friend Erica! Oh and I can't forget Ziggy (the dog) They are the best! We are all busy but when we are all home we have a blast and never stop laughing!
Everything else in my life is the same, just living the dream :) Life is good! Cant complain!
p.s I realize ALOT of you always wonder about my heart, well just to let you all know everything is fine there too! Still playing the waiting game :). But I'll keep you posted on that...maybe ;)
Many of you know that I closed my preschool. It was a hard decision but the timing was right and things have really worked out. So after being jobless and missing the kids for a while I started the good old job hunt! Well after some great jobs fell through I was going to give up. Then my little sister was watching out for me and saw a add for a assistant at an orthodontic office. Well long story short I got the job and a lot of prayers where answered! I am now working for Dr. Davis in Pocatello. I love it! The people I work with are great! I love getting to learn something new everyday! Although I never knew putting on braces was so hard! :)
Also with the closing of the preschool I needed some roommates! Well I once again have been blessed! I live with Tara (my little sis) like always, and then her best friend from high school Amanda and also my good friend Erica! Oh and I can't forget Ziggy (the dog) They are the best! We are all busy but when we are all home we have a blast and never stop laughing!
Everything else in my life is the same, just living the dream :) Life is good! Cant complain!
p.s I realize ALOT of you always wonder about my heart, well just to let you all know everything is fine there too! Still playing the waiting game :). But I'll keep you posted on that...maybe ;)
Just Start'n
Well after seeing so many of my wonderful friends be so diligent in their blog, it has inspired me to start my own! I am pretty excited about it. I swear that I run out of time to keep in touch with the MANY MANY people I want to stay in contact with. So I hope you enjoy this little spot of my life!
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